I’ve always been a listener, a good one, actually. But when it’s my turn to speak of my thoughts and emotions, everybody else seem to be doing the same thing, speaking and not listening. Which I thought was, or is, a little unfair so I never bothered to speak again.

I don’t understand how people could be surprise that I no longer vent as much as I used to and not very well at explaining or expressing things. I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry that I like to be more private now and how I rather keep my mouth shut than sit there for hours to explain myself to you when you’re not even listening. I’m sorry, for your behavior, of course.

This is why I prefer turning to a stranger for a little vent and advice rather than going through my contact saying “no” to every single person I come across down the list.

People are stupid. I hate people.

I like shoes and clothes.

I don’t believe in people truly changing or permanently shifting from one personality to another. But I do believe in people growing and maturing. Temporarily shifting from one personality to another.

I think what’s been done in the past will always be there, what you used to enjoy doing or who you used to be will always be somewhere in you, even if you’ve “changed.” I understand you’re no longer that person or you no longer enjoy the things you used to enjoy but if you try to go back to it, you’d still enjoy it. Somewhat.

Like, in one life time, whatevers been done will always be a part of it. You can’t simply cut it off just because it’s in the past, you know? It happened, you’re still alive, you’re still living the memory of it, or something. I don’t know how to explain it.

Fuck you. You know what I mean.

There will be a time where we’ll all stop forcing things that aren’t meant to be. We’ll stop putting the pieces together, trying to work things that aren’t working, and fixing things that are super broken and incapable of being fixed. If the puzzle piece isn’t suppose to be there, don’t force it. Simple as that.

There will be a time where we’ll all just stop hoping, caring, and quickly move on with our lives. We’ll realize that holding onto things that don’t want to be held on or things that aren’t suppose to be held on won’t work. We’ll all realize how things would be easier if we just breathe, inhale and exhale. If we relax, sit back, learn to go with the flow of life, and realize that no matter where it takes us, everything will be okay.

There will be a time where we’ll all stop stressing about what’s ahead of us, stop thinking of what’s left behind us, and not even worry much about what’s in front of us. We’ll care, of course. We always will. Just not as much to the point where we’ll stress and beat ourselves up.

Someday, things will change and everything will be better. We’ll just have to wait for that day to come. Sooner or later, it will.

That is a single line from a coworker that had me stunned. He explained how he has a girlfriend now and that there isn’t anyone out there that is automatically perfect for you, but there is only one person that can grow into your soul mate. To think about all the people in the world and all the relationships you encounter, some work and some don’t. For the times it doesn’t work and a break up occurs, how does a person know to let them go because they can find someone better? The thought of losing the right person for you because of neither of you were willing to fight anymore is ludicrous. Seems like timing has a lot to do with it as well. It’s not all about finding that right person, but also being the right person for them. The thought of ending that relationship, just to wander the earth to encounter others for an inevitable disappointment—what terrible way to live.